Thursday, August 10, 2017

Grief Is the Price We Pay for Love

It has been said by many that grief is the price we pay for love.  
 
I remember the day like it was yesterday when I found out my mom died suddenly of a heart attack.  It was a sucker punch to the stomach filled with the most unbearable pain I thought would never go away.

I’m still not sure how I made it on an airplane from Houston to Atlanta because my sobbing was absolutely uncontrollable and all I wanted during that time was someone at the airport, even a stranger, to hug me and tell me it would be alright.  I was hollow and my soul longed for comfort.  So much so that my sweet little third grader said, “Mom, please stop crying so much.” 
 
I showed up to GriefShare a month later still looking for a way to stop the pain.  I was 36 and I was not sure how I would make it without the love and guidance of my mother.  I still needed her!
 
I didn’t get to say goodbye.  She always made it a point to say “see you later”, never “goodbye”.  So I have learned that it really wasn’t necessary.  And I will see her later.
 
It took a while for God to mend this broken heart.  It’s honestly stronger than before and stronger In Him. 
 
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”  Psalm 34:18  
 
I am living proof.
 
Come join us at GriefShare on the journey from mourning to joy.
 
 
 

Sunday, May 14, 2017

On Mother's Day and Every Day - Love Your Momma


I sat in the waiting area of an auto service center one afternoon earlier in the week while the tires on my car were being rotated.  When I arrived, the waiting area was not crowded, but it was loud and although I had not yet determined the source of the noise, it was difficult to communicate with the person at the counter to tell her what services I needed.    

When I sat down, the culprit of the noise became evident.  To my right sat two ladies, one in her mid-sixties and the other in her mid-eighties maybe even nineties.  The older woman was reading a book very loudly to what appeared to be her daughter.  She was reading a story about a young girl who lost her mother.  I was slightly intrigued by the story, but truthfully, at the same time a little annoyed at the reading out loud experience.  She read page after page and when she came to a word she could not pronounce or recall, there would be silence.  Her daughter would say the word and then her mother would wait a few minutes and either mispronounce it or say it correctly and then continue reading.   

I would glance over every now and then and observe this little frail lady with huge magnifying eyeglasses holding the book about 3 inches from her face.  It wasn’t too long before the auto service person told the daughter her car was ready.  She went and paid at the counter while her mom continued reading aloud.  She came back to the waiting area and said, “Let’s go to the car, you can continue reading to me there.”  The little lady got up, looked over at me and said, “She said we need to go to the car now.”  It was almost as if she thought I would miss her story time offering.  I smiled and told her to have a great evening.   

As they left, I noticed the mother’s hair all matted in the back and how thin she really was. It took a while for her to walk outside, but the minute the door closed behind her I began to cry.  If anyone had walked in at that very moment they might have looked at me and thought wow, this girl needs Jesus (boy, don’t we all – and always?!).   

I thought of how much I miss my momma and how I won’t get to see her on Mother’s Day or any day until I meet Jesus too.  But I’m also thankful she won’t be here on earth to deal with old age, dementia, needing to read aloud to exercise her brain, and to deal with matted hair from sitting back in a chair, lying in bed, and being sedentary too long day after day.   

What an example of true love this daughter had for her mother.  Selfless love. The same kind I’m sure her mother has shown her for many, many years. 

No one loves you like your momma except Jesus.  So on Mother’s Day and every day, love your momma because time is a gift and you never know when she won’t be with you any longer.